Ameera 22 Medical Student




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Head = Heart = Aches
Friday, January 15, 2016 • January 15, 2016 • 0 comments





































Have you ever wonder why you felt something when you don't wanted to, or you want to but just couldn't let yourself to? How mysterious it is; the thing you called heart, how it works, how it works you, the things you favor, the things you don't, the feelings you felt, telling you things that sometime's true, sometime's isn't. Having a heart makes you human, yes, and being one means you need to feel pain, to drown in them and let it consume you. Sometimes your heart is a dark void, sucking everything that is being said and done towards you and seem to always have room for more. But of many mysterious things that a heart can do, it is sincere. What you feel, you can never lie. What you wanted to do, you can stop yourself, but are you okay with it? Liar.

A mind is another thing, it manipulates you. Saying the things you wanted to hear and not even the reality; saying the things you musn't hear and still not your reality. Don't let it ruin you, /meera\. The things it said to you, the things it wanted you to do, it's not real. 

Bad news was, I didn't get a very important email. And right now I am having those kind of days in which everything is not alright and even the smallest trigger can, 1. burst me into flames or 2. broke me into tears. I haven't talk to myself for awhile, which was good until today. Today, i started talking again. Reminding myself that I've through a similar event before, and maybe, just maybe worse than this. I don't know if it's the onion that I cut this morning or the fact that I am never good enough for the things and ones I favored most that aches my heart right now. But I'm sure and hoping that everything will turn out alright, that there is atleast one reason behind this and for that I'm moving forward.

*Update: I finally received the important email. Alhamdulillah. 


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